Firstly, I want to thank MacMillan Australia for sending me a review copy of this amazing book, this was a five-star read for me and I am so incredibly greatful for the chance to read it!
Sadie by Courney Summers
This Edition Published March 26 2019 by Macmillan
Where do I even begin with this book. I was a little skeptical before I began, usually with books that are this hyped, I don’t enjoy them, or can’t get into them. But this book was different. From the first page, learning about how the book was written, I was hooked.
This book is so incredibly sad, it is honest and raw and keeps you on your toes. It is the kind of book that you NEED to keep reading, even though you know, when you turn the page, your heart is going to shatter into a million tiny pieces.
Sadie is such an incredible character, she shows such strength and is wise beyond her years, but that comes from her upbrigning, she never had a chance to be a child, she was born and thrust into adulthood, then parenthood, caring for her younger sister, Mattie. Then her world was rocked, when Mattie was mysteriously murdered.
Sadie as a character, in the beginning, I wasn’t a fan, I felt that, as in most YA novels, her average-ness was over-played, making her seem like the perfect, imperfect character. But the more I read, and the more I got to know Sadie, the more I realised that her imperfection was her perfection. Her stutter, although appearing to make her weak in others eyes, gave her strength, it was like a secret weapon. People would constantly underestimate her, when really they should have been worried or cautious. Her sense of humour is amazing, dry and sarcastic, just like mine. I think Sadie and I would have gotten on well.
What breaks my heart the most about Sadie is that she blames herself for Matties murder. Not just becuase she knew what happened to her, as a child was her fault, but also because she was the one who pushed her over the edge, so to speak. She was the last straw, Mattie was looking for a sister, but Sadie was so used to wearing the role of Mother, that she couldn’t revert to being her friend, anymore than Mattie could really expect her to.
We first meet Sadie early in the book, and a quote from this meeting has sat with me, throughout the whole book, I want to share it with you now:
“I live in a place that’s only good for leaving.” Sadie – Page 11
That has sat with me because from the moment we meet Sadie, we know she is going. We know that she won’t be where we think she is. That she has left for good.
This book is so incredibly well written, even though some of the content is incredibly difficult to read, to process and to think about, it is written in a way that breaks it down, into manageable portions. I absolutely love the way that a radio show or podcast has been written into this book. It modernises it, it makes it exciting to read and it really makes the pace pick up. This books pages turn so quickly, that it is over, and you are sobbing and can’t work out why there are no pages left to read.
I do think it is necessary for me to note that this book deals with some incredibly confronting topics. So let this be a warning for you, this book contains Physical and psychological abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, drug addiction and abuse, alcoholism, and violence. Just to name a few.
These things, although hard to read about, are what makes this book so amazing. Now, don’t take that sentence the wrong way. I don’t like reading about childhood sexual abuse, but what I do like is, how this book creates a conversation about it. It opens the doors for someone to start talking. That is why this book is so important.
If you haven’t read this amazing book, you seriously need to. It will blow your mind. If you are finding it hard to get into, stick with it. It is emotionally charged, a book that you won’t forget and something that is so important, especially in today’s society.
Read the book.
As always, thanks for reading.